Simply...Woman!

Crystal Andrus Morissette: I
have a warning for you today,

because something powerful is
happening right now. The world

is shifting. The energy really
is shifting, and you are

shifting because this week, the
spring equinox, cracked open a

new season. Can you feel it? Can
you feel the energy? Something

in the air is shifting: a portal
of possibility, renewal and

transformation. It's real, and
while some people are just going

through the motions, other are
tapping into something ancient,

like our Dear Ellen Irvine, I'm
going to be I'm going to throw a

little picture of Ellen right
now. And Ellen is a Master

Empowerment Coach who stood this
morning at 4am in the UK at

Stonehenge. She jumped on a
plane, flew from Canada. She was

there to feel the pulse of the
Earth, the energy of thousands

of years of wisdom surging
through her, and she is going to

be bringing it back to us next
week, March 25 when we start our

Master Empowerment Coach
Certification - MECC 2025

This isn't just about history.
It's about you. It's about

stepping into a new era of your
life, one where you claim your

power, you trust your knowing.
There's a knowingness inside of

you. It's not a thinking, it's
not a believing, it's a knowing,

and when you can just really
begin to trust that and stop

waiting for permission to rise.

So today we're not just talking
about change, we're stepping

into it. This is Simply...Woman,
and it starts now.

Welcome to Simply...Woman! I'm
Crystal Andrus Morissette, your

host, and this is the place to
be where we break free from

fear, where we claim our power,
and we step into the lives we

were meant to live. And today
we're talking about something

big, the energy of new
beginnings. Because this is it

like in the world, seasonally,
this is the time, at least on

this Western Hemisphere. Because
if you've been feeling stuck, if

you've been circling the same
old patterns, looping and

looping and looping, this is
your invitation to let that go

and step into something greater.
Last week, we had an incredible

conversation with Leslie from
Mexico, who cracked open

something deep, and today we're
checking back in to see what

shifted since then, we're also
going to be welcoming a brand

new guest into the love seat. I
don't know exactly what's about

to unfold, but I know this is
going to be powerful. But before

we get to last week's guest, I
actually want to circle right

around to our very first
podcast, because we never did a

check in with Dorothy, so I'm
going to welcome Dorothy back

into the love seat for a few
minutes for a quick check in.

Hey, Dorothy. I know it's been
quite a few weeks now, but I am

so happy you're back. You're
looking just radiant. Thank you.

How are you since our first
podcast in our check?

Oh,

Dorothy: Oh, I'm much better.
Much much better. I actually

listened to the podcast on
YouTube once you published it,

and it sort of put me into a
cycle of, you know, really

getting in touch with where I
truly was resonating and what

came out of that conversation,
and recognizing, you know, when

we sat there and we scored, you
know, how much do I really want

this business versus some of the
other things, like the happiness

and the flexibility and all
that? And, of course, what came

out of it was I realized there
was some wounded parts of me

that still needed some healing.
And you know what it ended up

doing, I started writing a book.

What I literally started writing
a book about my life and about

some of the things that
occurred, and the stuff just

started to flow out of me like
somebody turned on a tap. And I

have to say, My mother always
used to say that writing was a

very therapeutic method of
getting stuff out. And she was

very right, very true, and it
sort of made me do a complete

shift, and I've been looking at
things a little bit differently.

And you know the fact that we're
on this spring equinox now, I

woke up this morning and I
thought,

well, I don't have meetings and
stuff planned today, but I'm

going to get up and I'm going to
put myself together, and I'm

going to show up on Crystal's
podcast, and it's all going to

be good this afternoon. I've got
all these strategic things for

my business that I plan to do.

Crystal Andrus Morissette: Yeah,
that's so feminine flow. You

listened to your body. You...
Yes, healing. Heal Thy Self =

healthy self. That's it. When
I'm talking about healing, I'm

really just talking about, you
know, looking inward at those

stories, those limiting.

beliefs, the things we we don't
even realize our mind. And I

think what's important that we
all realize why all of us get

stuck in loops, all of us, is
that there is one part of the

brain that gets really excited
about that change, but there is

an unconscious part of the brain
that has a whole bunch of

limiting beliefs to keep you in
the familiarity of what you

know. So you're you're having
this conflicting thing going on

in your own brain and the body
your life will always show you

what's actually going on in your
brain. And it's so true, so

amazing, that you just were able
to, like, take the time to

connect writing, brain and body
and feeling. And then as that

clarity came, something in your
energy, your spirit fired back

up, and you're ready to rock and
roll today. So that's how we

women do it. We flow, we go
inward, we listen, we write, we

reflect, if we are in women
energy. So kudos to you. You

sound like you're, you know,
listening to yourself and

following your own flow.

Dorothy: I feel like I'm, you
know, because I recognized I was

the one that was getting in my
own way. Was really me. We are,

yeah, never ends. That's the one
thing I will say.

Unknown: Let's

Crystal Andrus Morissette: Let's
stay with that thought for one

sec. Dorothy, yeah, it's always
us getting in our own way, and

even if it's someone else, for
sure that we're so certain, no,

no, no, it's my husband. We got
in our own way to allow the

thing to get in the way. We got
in our own way, and when we

start getting out of our own
way, it's amazing how every

relationship in our life
changes, even if nothing about

them changed.

This is empowerment. When you
change the way you look at

things, they energetically
change.

So back to you, Dorothy, and I
love that you're writing a book,

because ladies, this is what I
will tell every single woman,

whether in the end, you publish
the book or not, the most

cathartic healing thing you'll
ever do for yourself is write

your own story. Own your story.
Grieve those parts. Cry over

parts, laugh over parts, tell
the all the parts. Own yourself,

The Good, the Bad, the Ugly. And
one day you might say, I never

need to share this, but holy,
the wisdom. And I'll share that

story, because that's going to
be so relevant to to but all of

that was necessary for the
healing. And that's really, you

know, I think a lot of women
wonder when they're coming into

MECC like, what do I get out of
it? Such a huge part is writing.

Those assignments are all
designed for you, for your

healing, for your learning, but
you're doing it right now.

Dorothy intuitively already on
your own because you've gone

through pack, you're already in
the strategic mode, and you're

doing your own work. So kudos
again to any last thought you

just want to share before we
jump over to Leslie?

Dorothy: I will just say one of
the things that did come up for

me, and again, this is true to
who I am as a person. If someone

said to me at any point in time.
You can't do this. My rhetoric

to that was, you just watch me,
and I'm still that woman, and I

think I'll always be that woman.

Crystal Andrus Morissette: And
you were her when you were 10

Dorothy: absolutely, I waS

Crystal Andrus Morissette: You
were her when you were 10, and

you were her when you were 20,
and you were her when you were

30. And if you were to actually
go back to journals all of those

years, the spirit of who you are
has never changed. So the more

that we can just accept that,

accept ourselves, surrender to
ourselves, love ourselves, in

spite of some of the things
we've been taught are, are, are

limiting us that level of
acceptance, just alone, frees up

more space.

Dorothy: Thank you, Dorothy,
thank you.

Unknown: Alright, let's get into
it. If you were with us last

week, you witnessed something
profound. Leslie from Mexico had

a major breakthrough, and today
we get to check back in, because

here's the truth. I say it every
week, transformation is not

about a single moment listening
to Dorothy. It's what happens

after the session. It's what
happens after the moment.

Crystal Andrus Morissette: Embody
it,

write, reflect,

Unknown: look at the way you're
seeing things. So let's welcome

back, Leslie and hear what's
unfolded in the past week. Hey,

Leslie, how are you since last
week

Leslie: Hi, Crystal. I'm super
happy. I'm amazing, wonderful.

Amazing again.

Crystal Andrus Morissette: The
best voice. Okay, I listened to

the podcast from last week, and
I was literally like, I need to

put my mouth right on this mic
when I'm talking, because

Leslie's voice was so clear and
powerful that I actually had to

ask her, what kind of microphone
do you use? It really sounds

good.

Um, so Leslie, talk to me about
what came up for you after the

conversation. No, after the
conversation we had.

Leslie: I had so many
breakthroughs. I I make. I

circle back to the past. I talk
to myself. Well, I do this. I

talk to myself in different
versions. So the old Leslie, the

new Leslie, the actual Leslie,
the future Leslie. So I have so

many Leslies going on, so I talk
to myself in different ways. And

I talked about the other Leslie,
what happened? What's going on?

Why you show up? We were okay,
what's going on. And I mean, I

know that some people write it,
but I like to talk. I am a

talker, so I talk to her, and I
get the conclusion that it was

something, that it was I was
afraid of losing everything that

I have beside my job, because it
was that hard time that I passed

a long time ago, it was
depression. It was so many

things that I didn't close, or
my subconscious was bringing

together with the with the job
loss.

Crystal Andrus Morissette: So
you were really connecting it.

You were realizing this was an
old fear that, who will I be,

and what if I lose everything,
and what if I, like, literally,

was it like, all the way to the
fear of, like, what if I'm going

to lose my house? Like, were you
going into that fear state?

Leslie: Yes, I was, like, losing
even my husband, because at that

time, back then, when I lost my
job, I didn't have or my

boyfriend left me, and my
parents were really worried

about me. I mean, it was a messy
time in your life.

Crystal Andrus Morissette: So
what we what you came to the

conclusion, was you'd lost your
job, and it was like really,

really took its hit on your self
esteem. And as we dug deeper, we

saw that there was a time in
your life many, many years ago,

before you were even married,
that you lost job, you fell into

a depression. You got really
afraid. Your father impressed

upon you. Never depend on a man.

You have to be independent. And
when you lost your job last

year, even though you've been
married for 23 years, am I

remembering 23 Yes, correct. You
just celebrated an anniversary

in the last week, and I said,
but what if it's okay to lean on

your husband? What if it's okay
and it's your time? Like it's

okay to lean on him now and it's

we get to be interdependent,

you know? Like I know all of us
that listen to Beyonce's

"Independent Woman." I still,
I'm still in shock that

Charlie's Angels was 20 years
ago. Come on. I still listen to

that. I still sing along, going,
and "I can buy my own rings."

Where did that get me? Yeah,
that was good. I learned how to

buy all my own rings. You see
these shoes. I bought these

shoes. I'm wearing them. And
then suddenly we were all like,

50 and going, it would be nice
to share, and it would be nice

to know that I can do it and I
have done it, but it's okay to

receive and really let myself
receive support and let myself

take this time for Healing. Heal
thyself, slowing down,

reflecting, leaning into my
body, listening to my emotions

and feelings, doing some deep
healing, so that for this second

chapter, I say it like that
second act, you're going to be

your most powerful, heal whole
self with all of these different

parts.

Leslie: Exactly, exactly. And I
get inspired. I get a lot of

energy right now. So I'm I'm
ready for the next thing for me.

So here I am. UA to go. Leslie,
thank you so much. Thanks for

coming back. Thanks for bringing
your energy.

Crystal Andrus Morissette: And
ladies, I want to say this, we

don't always have to be amazing
either. Like empowerment doesn't

always mean that we're all
bouncing off the walls and we

are amazing. Sometimes

You know, so thank you. Leslie,
thank you.

Leslie: Thank you so much.
Crystal.

Crystal Andrus Morissette: Wow.
Well, this is what it means to

stay in the work you know, to
choose yourself, to keep

choosing yourself, to keep
rising. And it's not easy, but

it's time now for a new
conversation, and our next guest

is Siobhan. And Siobhan is here
because she's feeling something

many of us have felt. And I
write these things, but the

truth is, I don't even fully
know what Siobhan is here to

share, but I have a funny
feeling there is a pull between

who she was and who she's
becoming and stepping into the

unknown. But one thing I do know
is Siobhan is in the right place

we all are. So let's dive in.

Hey, Siobhan, I'm so excited
you're here with us today. Tell

me what's going on for you?

Siobhan: Money, money. I've

I've always had a money wound
and struggled with it, and I'm

in a transition in my life right
now where I'm trying to phase

out of of my career that I found
myself in, which was always

meant to be something temporary,
but I find that I enjoy it

enough that it's hard to leave
and it's very easy to look

around and not be happy where I
am financially, even though I

should feel gratitude for it,
because I have done well for

myself, along with my husband
and we really have nothing to

worry about yet I just don't I
always worry about it. We don't

go on as many holidays as I wish
we could. And I am an

entrepreneur, and so I don't
have pension or anything like

that, and so we have to save for
me. And it's always on my mind

that I'm not going to be able to
even have a standard of living

that I even have right now,
which isn't overwhelming, right?

And so it always just cycles in
my my head, right? It's up in

here. And as I'm going through a
transition, I just feel that I'm

I've opened myself up to
abundance since the fall, which

has been very liberating for me,
and forming community and

getting actively involved in the
community. I'm a volunteer, and

so I feel that the abundance is
there, and people are

recognizing me and seeing me,
and I've been offered like five

different jobs in the last like
five weeks, which is so amazing,

but they're all jobs that don't
pay enough. Okay,

Unknown: thank you. That

Crystal Andrus Morissette: was
great. Thank you for just like,

letting that free flow go, like
you just brought us through. And

what was amazing for me is I got
to experience a full range of

emotions right in there. Like I
got to feel it all. I got to

feel like, how, how, how full
all the emotions are going on

inside of you, and how you
really are able to tap into

like, many different things all
at once. So first of all, let's

all we remember that like
sometimes we think we're this,

well, we're this and this and
this and that. And you could

hear Siobhan being I'm grateful,
and I'm feel guilty, and I have

fear, and I know I'm fine, and I
have everything I need, and I

have an old wound, and there's
just a lot going on in there. So

that tells me this is a thinker.
This woman is a thinker, and she

is up in her brain, thinking,
thinking, stinking thinking, and

that stinking thinking will make
us go cool, right? Because I'm a

thinker too. So I would say the
first thing is, Siobhan is, can

you say to yourself, I accept
that I am a thinker.

Siobhan: I accept that I am a
thinker.

Crystal Andrus Morissette: She
has a smile on her face like

that. Really felt like truth,
and she actually giggled at it.

Oh, I'm just a scientist. Oh,

oh. So my scientific brain is
looking at all angles at all

times, wanting to experience the
full range of emotions. Every

thought is pinging off at all
times. And now that I recognize

that I have the power to think
many different thoughts all at

once, because that's how
brilliant I am. I'm being you

right

now. Okay,

if I could really practice
mindfulness, I could probably

lock in on one of or two of
those energy fields that feel so

good inside my body, and I
imagine if I could use that

brain that I've used for so many
other things to really get

intentional, intentional about
what I want to manifest

that can be really exciting for.

You,

can you accept that you do have
the ability to choose which

place you're going to put your
energy?

Siobhan: Yes.

Crystal Andrus Morissette: Can
you accept that you have the

ability to actually even decide
how you want to feel?

Siobhan: That one's harder for
me to say.

Crystal Andrus Morissette: Okay,
yeah, so let's, let's stay with

that one right now. So share
what part of that that you

realize I don't really feel
comfortable knowing that I have

the ability to set the channel
with all those different

thoughts. And I do

She's such a thinker, and she's
so scientific. I know Siobhan,

she's she's becoming one of our
Master Empowerment Coaches, and

she just graduated from our
Personal Empowerment

Certification. Did
extraordinary.

I already know she's a thinker.
I know I pick up on that thought

process because I have a lot of
that myself. So I recognize a

kindred spirit who's a writer
and a thinker, and how you can

really, you could go with any
thought, you could probably

like, create something brilliant
out of any one of those

different thoughts.

So if I,

if I told you that I have
learned that

we can control

Unknown: through acceptance,

Crystal Andrus Morissette: where
we will resonate and it can

change everything for us, would
you be open to

Siobhan: that possibility?

Yes

Crystal Andrus Morissette: What
comes up for you when I share

that, when I say it in that way
for you?

Siobhan: I guess I still feel
constraint. Yeah, just in that

it's there's all these demands
on me, and I have made choices

in my life that have impacted
where I am right now, and

they've never been wrong, but
it's just life is a series of

choices, and so I am where I am
because of the decisions that

I've made, and

I feel that they can control me
more because, you know, I have

four children, I'm busy. I've
said yes to all these things,

and a lot of them are extended,
like I'm basically booked in my

my job until you know the what
the summertime kind of deal,

right? And so I'm in this
situation because of the choices

that I've made, and I need to
take ownership for that.

Crystal Andrus Morissette: Okay,
so I'm going to just tell you a

little bit about what I'm
feeling, and then we can drop

into your body and see if it
feels like there's I'm feeling.

So when I say that to you, it
feels like I lay... "I made my

bed. I better lay in it" like.
It's an energy that's very

Mennonite like. It feels very
Mennonite like, and it's very

like Scottish like I came from,
like my literally, my

grandparents would have said to
my mother, like, "You got

pregnant at 17, you made your
bed. You lay in it like" so you

made that choice. You got four
kids.

Yeah, better hunker down and
take that job seriously. So

there's a real element of like,
I'm due feeling like there's a

lot of like I made decisions.
Now, the other thing I'm hearing

you say is, but since the fall,
I'm recognizing and realizing

that I'm changing. Something's
changing inside of me. Because

I'm something is changing. Tell
me about that. So since the

fall, and I want to point and
the reason I'm just slowing this

line of thinking down a little
bit, is just to, in a moment,

remind you that the outer world
is a bit of a lag time from the

mental world. So body always
follows mind. Outer world always

follows body, but mind is always
at the core of everything. So

what's beginning to show up in
your outer world, there's a bit

of lag time, like, ladies,
sometimes, man, we can manifest

like fast once we're up there,
like once we're now in it, we're

like, in flow. And we know
exactly who we are. We know the

vibe we need to stay in. We want
to stay in. Why would we even

get out of that? Why would we
allow blocks in our happiness?

Why would we allow that way of
thinking? But we haven't trained

ourselves. We've never learned
it. Nobody's ever shown it.

We've never been witnessed it.
We've never seen a soul do it.

So we're really going on. And
like magic wand shit, and it

takes a lot of courage to trust
in the Magic Wand of empowerment

and energy shifting your entire
life. So tell me that you

something changed for you in the
fall, and it's beginning to

catch up, but it's not quite up
to speed.

Siobhan: Mm, hmm. Well, I've
done a lot of personal healing.

I just, I'm like, I'm up here
from where I was before, and

part of my healing was knowing
that I can take up space and

that I don't need to stay little
anymore, and staying at home

doesn't help. And we all need
community. And so I have,

yeah, I have branched out into
really going into town because I

live on a rural property and,

yeah, realizing that I am more
than what I currently am like in

my career and in who I am, so
that I'm on boards, and I am

empowering youth and working
with children to empower them in

the kitchen, right? So I I teach
kids in the kitchen too, and

just didn't, I guess I figured
out that I am a guide for for

people in this world, and I can
offer them a gift if they choose

to accept it. And that is my my
purpose is to bring community

and connection to people,
because that is really lacking

in the world right now.

Crystal Andrus Morissette: Well,
listen, if this doesn't sound

like this woman's getting some
clarity, why do I don't know

what to say here, like we are
moving in the right direction,

like, not only have you turned
the Titanic, which I don't even

know if you were on the Titanic,
but if it felt like that at one

point, because that's just the
terminology I've used in my own

life,

you're you're getting a lot of
clarity. So now I'm hearing you

say I went from I am where I am
because of the decisions I made

in my life. And holy, it sounded
like there was a lot of guilt in

there, like it really did feel
like a so I have guilt story

too. So I have to accept, I
accept that I

have guilt.

I have guilt that I made myself
smaller than I really wanted to

be. I have guilt that, on some
level, I want more than just

being the mom in the country I
am trying to make peace with,

like stories and like what I
learned and like I'm I have

guilt that I'm busting through.
Like, we don't know all this, by

the way, like it takes like,
incredible amounts of self

reflection to actually really
understand the energy of guilt,

because you're also so high
resonating that you have so much

passion and love and like
purpose and like this clarity is

clicking through. So it's like,
we're we're removing the outside

of the onion, and now that's
been done. You've peeled the

onion, and now the brown the
outside, that edges come off and

that edges come off. And so each
edge that you're kind of

shedding, like the clay Buddha,
there's more coming off and

there's more coming off.

And

I'm hearing a different loop
than the loop that I've talked

about with other women. So I'm
going to introduce another loop

for you today, and I'm going to
call your loop. You're going to

give everybody a loop.
Everybody's going to have their

own. I feel like you are maybe a
little bit stuck in desire, up

to reason.

Unknown: I feel like you're very
reasonable, and you have in mind

that when you when

Crystal Andrus Morissette: here,
okay,

the body can only reach in terms
of empowerment, in terms of

consciousness, the body alone to
have the courage to push

through, to face ourselves like
that, takes A lot of courage,

and for the in body alone, just
doing the work physically, and

like all of that stuff we want
to do to heal ourselves

physically, we can reach about
200 in the map of consciousness.

But when we can, like, integrate
and get the mind aligned with

the body, we're hitting about
400 where you're at. That's why

your brain is like,

so fast. So you're up here in
this reason, but you're looping

down a hitting desire. And in
that desire, there's this

wanting, and in that wanting,
there's this frustration of, I

know what I I'm I'm really meant
to be up here, like, because

when I hear you say, I'm meant
to guide people, I am a guide. I

offer a gift, there is certainty
in the way that you say that.

Siobhan: Mm, hmm,

yes, it feels good to say that,
to realize that I could feel it

like it's so strong off of you,
like there's there's a very

strong, very intelligent, very
confident, very capable woman

sitting in front of me, and she
knows.

Exactly who she is,

so I'm honoring that.

Crystal Andrus Morissette: So I
think what's happening for you?

I feel like it your fault.
You're you're getting yourself

up there, and you're like, Yeah,
I know I'm a guide. I know I

meant for more. I know I'm
bringing community together, and

I want it now.

Yeah, smile like I want it right
now. I wanted it yesterday, and

the minute I realized I wanted
it, I'm now locking in on that.

But in the energy of desire,
you're living on a rural, rural

land in Canada, and are do you
guys not plant food and stuff in

the ground? Don't you have a
farm on some level.

Siobhan: Well, we have an
acreage, so I have a garden, a

garden.

Crystal Andrus Morissette: So
you

understand that "desire"
resonates at planting the seeds.

is the growing now.

I am more than who I currently
am. So I want to say this, we

all are, but very few of us have
the courage to outwardly just

say that to the world like I
know I am way more than I've

been living

and we all are, but you're so
recognizing it, and it's very

reasonable the way it comes out
of your mouth. It's very matter

of fact. There's a real
knowingness about that. So I am

way more than who I currently
am, and I feel like, if you

could accept that, like, really,
even just lean into that feeling

of like, I really accept that I
am more than I've been living.

Can you say that

Unknown: I accept more than I
have been living? I accept that

I am more than I currently have
been.

Siobhan: I accept that I am more
than I've currently been. I

accept that it frustrates me.

Crystal Andrus Morissette: Mm,
hmm, yes, laugh of truth, right

there. I accept that it
frustrates me. Yeah, because

you're hitting anger like you're
dropping into desire and anger,

yes, and I don't get the sense
that you even want to go lower,

like you're like, fuck that
shit. I am not going down into

guilt, but it is there. It is
there. And the reason I say it

like that not because of
judgment, but because you have

four kids, and I think it's
almost virtually impossible to

be a mother in this world with
small kids, because your kids

are quite young still, and

we want, we want. I

Um,

I want to phase out of my
career. But then I also heard

you say, but I enjoy it enough
to not leave. So I would also

say, What's wrong with that?
Like, I'm just asking that

question, like, not with
judgment, but just like, what's

wrong with that? To say I had to
transition. I've I transitioned

out of jobs, to slowly to not
have to ever go into a place of

brick and mortar, but it took
time to transition. And I will

say this, and I know I throw
around numbers sometimes that

are shocking. I was probably
transitioning and leaving a job

that I was making about $20,000
a month because I enjoyed it

enough to not leave it. But it's
not where I wanted to be. So

it's not about money. It's that
sometimes you're like, I'm

transitioning, and there's still
the fear of like, well, that new

thing really provides enough
money to fully let go of this

thing, and this thing still
gives me some joy. It's getting

me out of the house. I'm being
around people. I get to be a

teacher. I get. To practice my
empowerment coaching is making

some money, so just walk that
through from me. Why that causes

you frustration?

Siobhan: I think it goes back to
my like, my scientist brain,

where like, because I teach
driver's education, and I have

been doing it for almost seven
years, and it very I've

perfected it where, you know, I
I can see what the issue is, and

we can, you know, concentrate on
getting that done. And I just,

I just feel that I'm more than
left and right turns.

Yeah, you are, but, but I also
want to say This is that time

that you're in the car with that
person. And I don't know the

price tag that goes on that, but
that is the scientist and

teacher that's in that car. Like
you're perfected. It you've

perfected right and left turns.
It's not right and left turns.

It's confidence. It's that
you're instilling confidence in

a new driver, whether that new
driver is 50 year old woman

that's an immigrant to the
country, or whether it's a 16

year old kid that's learning how
to drive, that's a sacred job.

Yeah, I agree the way that you
really do treat it. And to have

an hour in a car with somebody,

Crystal Andrus Morissette: and
you could bring the most

magnificent energy into that
exchange, and you could leave it

really and I would also say
this, I'm just throwing this out

there, just, I'm just getting
you thinking, I'm not, I'm not,

I'm not even telling you to
ever, I'm not telling you to

stay with it, even for one more
day, by the way. But I'm just

saying, I don't know why this
just popped into my head, but I

remember like I know. And you
might go, Crystal, why are you

telling me this story? But I'm
just going to tell it. Siobhan,

just go with me. I worked with a
company that did cleaning

people's houses, and they
trained women. They wanted them

all to clean houses in a certain
way, and they really wanted it

down to a science. If you wash
it, you shine it, if you do,

nothing gets left without being
dried, like everything that gets

anyways, they had, they brought
me in. They wanted to create a

system that could be so we
literally filmed how to wash

every damn thing in a house and
how to make it shine from light

bulbs. I didn't even know people
did that. Then I was like, Oh,

wow. We do wash chandeliers and
we wash every light bulb. I

didn't know that. Oh, I didn't
know the shit that I don't have

cleaned in my house. But
watching these people with the

way they took such pride in the
way they wanted their business

run, I realized when someone
comes in and cleans your house,

that's like, sacred and like,
you're so damn blessed, like

you've just had someone come
into your space, bring their

energy into your home, in your
bedroom, making your bed, or

whatever it is she's doing. And
what if we change the way that

we saw that and we honored that
woman and what she does? So I do

just want to remind you that
even though this is a transition

and you might be feeling there's
an part of your ego and your

brilliance and your brain that
says I'm too smart for this,

like I have too much to offer
the world right now. However,

this was a temporary you said
it. I I transitioned. I have a

money wound. I've had a money
wound my whole life. I've should

feel grateful. There's just a
lot in there. I know I have

nothing to worry about. There
just feels like there's a lot

tied to

your identity. It

just feels like, for me, there's
a lot that's just tied around

your identity right now, like,
who are you as a woman?

Siobhan: What lands for you? Who
are you as a woman, Siobhan?

right?

Crystal Andrus Morissette: right?

And what if you were to say, I
with two feet on the floor, I

accept that I'm still struggling
with that societal pull

that's

on me, who

I am, what my identity is like.
There's something around there

that I think a lot of women like
you're not sharing something

that we don't all relate to and
connect with, but you're sharing

something that. I think, is
really deep and complex and

layered for a lot of us. And I'm
really, actually grateful that

you just pause before you went.
I am all things, and I'm just in

it, and then you went, and I
don't even really know, because

I think some of us are just so
quick to be like and I am this,

and I am the wind and I am the
sunshine, and I am the and I am

everything, and I am in it all,
and it's and you are, and we're.

It is great. But who am I if it
didn't make me a bad mother,

Woman, nothing, who am I if I
didn't have to think about what

made me happy in 10 years from
now, like what would make me

happy if,

if I didn't have children to
worry

about, if I didn't have a farm
or acreage, if I didn't have a

husband, if it were just me and
it's not so we don't have to

actually make any decision. But
I'm learning to ask myself these

questions, Siobhan and I'm
turning 55 and I've asked these

questions my whole life, since I
was 10. So it's a layered thing.

It doesn't go away. You get you
ask the questions, and you're

digging deep,

and you're,

of

the stories and beliefs that
we're carrying underneath, and

money is one way that expresses
us, to show us

what we believe,

maybe subconsciously, what's
under who we are, not who we

really are, but the conflicting
programming going on in there,

we all have programming every
single human being. So when the

programming no longer is working
for us, and we realize, oh,

there's conflicting programming,
then you recognize that your

brain is a computer. I love her
smile that she just gets it so

quick, like I can change the
programming. I had a certain

program that I installed at a
certain age, and for a while it

worked, until I realized it
wasn't working. And then I kind

of really worked hard to make it
work, because, like, I think

changing the programming, we're
all scared to do that. What

would that mean? But then

finally,

each one of us had the moment of
like, what if I were willing to

consider the possibility that I
do have some limited

programming, and what could that
mean for you, if you could

accept that you have some
limited programming that you are

ready to

break free of

Siobhan: Yeah, I think I've been
ready for it for a while, and I

just don't know how to do it.
Okay,

Crystal Andrus Morissette: so
why don't we do this together?

Why don't we put two feet on the
ground, and all of us, we can do

this together. Those of you that
know me know crystal likes too,

even though she's sitting on a
big ball right now and she's in

a dress, I'm going to pull
everything out. Just let myself

get really grounded in my own
body. And we can just all do

this together, if you feel
comfortable, just to close your

eyes and let your shoulders just
relax, let your hands relax and

and it's hard at first to get
out of the busy brain. We think

meditating. We're up in our
brains, even trying to steal the

thoughts. Let's just get out of
the brain and let's imagine. And

you've got such a brain, and
you've got so many pathways that

are just firing so you're you
can see that, see yourself up in

there, see all of these, wow,
this neurons firing, and

synaptic pathways and connector
sites and all this stuff going

on. And there it is, a little
tiny you watching it all in awe.

And you walk over to the
elevator that's on the wall, and

the doors open, and you go
inside, and you close the doors,

and it gets really quiet. You
sit for a minute in the quiet

elevator, and

then you press the down button,

and let's just let it drop down,
down down to the fourth floor,

to the bridge between your lower
levels of consciousness, for all

that reason and brilliance, and
we're just going to let it lower

down, down down through your
intuition. Just keep letting it

drop down through your throat
chakra, where your voice you

just want to express yourself,
your throat is aching to be

heard. We're just going to keep
dropping down, letting yourself

drop the elevator. Just keep
sliding down all the way past

your collarbones is dropping
down into the center of your.

Cast, and the doors open up, and
there's the most magical green

garden. It's not winter there.
It's beautiful.

And there is the most beautiful
flowers. This Sacred Garden is

yours, inside of you, Siobhan,
and outside of all of us, and it

looks however is most beautiful
to you. Let yourself be there.

And if your elevator wants to go
back up, just get back. Lower it

back down and come back in the
garden. Stay with my voice and

just seeing all the flowers be
barefoot on the earth,

breathe in the atmosphere.

Is it Sunny? Is it rainy? What's
going on be in that energy of

your body. Let your shoulders
drop down from your ears, and

really breathe in all that love
inside of you fill your lungs up

with all of that love, the
sacred scents, the smells of the

flowers the Earth, the abundance
the sun shining on you, this

beautiful, magnificent garden
breathing into it, feeling

grounded and safe and and just
in that calm place, let's

imagine that we're going to walk
over to your heart, and it's

right in there, in the garden.
And your heart is this

beautiful, magnificent, bright
light.

See if you can find it.

And your heart is connected to
this omnipotent ocean of love.

And maybe your heart is so open
and beating and flowing and

free, but maybe right now your
heart has been hurt or it's a

little bit scared. So check in
with your heart and ask it how

it's doing. Siobhan, what does
your heart say to you right now?

Siobhan: I think that it I think
it needs a hug. I feel it needs

a hug.

Crystal Andrus Morissette: Can
you see your maybe your heart's

been hidden behind a big wooden
cabinet. Does that feel like it

might be accurate?

Siobhan: What does I think it
kind of it brings up that that

weight of the world on my
shoulders that I thought was

gone,

Crystal Andrus Morissette: that's
okay, stay there. Let's imagine

that you have been so brilliant
that you didn't even realize it,

but you took your magnificent,
big, bright, white light heart

that's connected to this
omnipotent ocean of holy love,

and just let's imagine, in your
brilliant safety, that you put

your heart inside a big wooden
cabinet. It's over there in the

garden, and the Cabinet has a
padlock on the outside of it.

And let's walk over to the big
cabinet, and let's reach inside

your pocket and pull out the
key, and let's do it together.

Let's slide the key in and turn
the padlock, and then pull the

padlock off and just drop it to
the ground. And then get ready,

because inside there is, there's
a lot of magnificence, holy

jumping. There's a lot of
lightweight and get ready. Are

you ready?

Let's open the doors. Wow. So

beautiful. Look at that. Whoo,
holy, holy light. Let's take the

cabinet and let's just take your
heart rate out of the cabinet

and give it a big hug. Oh, my
God, the white light just coming

radiating from that ocean of
love. There's just unlimited

amounts of love and light in
that heart that's been waiting

for you, ask your heart what it
needs from you,

expression, to be able to just
be itself, just to be Yeah,

and what does Your heart want
you to know the the you that had

thought you had to put your
heart in a cabinet

Siobhan: safety and that I am
allowed to shine.

Crystal Andrus Morissette: Yeah,
and what do you want to tell

your heart like the part of you
that was just protecting it like

you weren't doing it forever,
permanently. You were just doing

it for a period of time to keep
your heart safe. So what do you

want to tell your heart now that
I don't need to to pretend to be

somebody that I'm not and I
don't need. To be small and I

can go shine because that is my
that's my purpose, your

birthright. Couldn't even
imagine telling your children

we're going to take you and put
you in wooden cabinets and lock

you in there. You would never
dream of doing that. So I don't

even think that wooden cabinet
belongs in your garden. It

doesn't even make sense that
it's there to me, why don't we

just dissolve the cabinet like,
just magically, like, watch it

dissolve from the ground up,
like it just

Unknown: Are you still there?
Are you feeling it? The

Crystal Andrus Morissette: heart,
the cabinet, is gone, and now

there's you. So now, with your
beating, open heart, come back

in your body. Siobhan, all of us
stay in your body, come back in

your body. All of us, your heart
is open. Let's imagine that that

heart is connected to an
energetic cord that is connected

to this divine ocean of love
that's just above you, this big,

huge, holy, heavenly, omnipotent
energy. And let's Siobhan, open

up the faucet, just for now in
your body, just start opening

the faucet. Let the water, let
the holiness, let the healing,

let it begin to anoint you, flow
through you start to let it feel

like white light coming in and
wrapping around any place that

hurts, traveling all the way
down into your pelvic floor,

filling your entire body, Your
hole, from your neck down to

your pelvic floor, just white
light moving swirling healing,

wrapping around places that need
hugs, parts of you that need

hugs, going all the way down
into the basement and just

blasting it with bright light,
healing anointing, and let that

white light continue to just
drop down your legs and anoint

mother earth underneath you in
your garden, and all the flowers

start growing more, beautifully
and abundantly, and more life is

coming just around you is Just
vibrantly coming to life.

Flowers are popping up
everywhere. And in the distance

you see a fountain, and we're
going to begin to walk towards

that fountain, Siobhan, and each
step you take, little flowers

appear beside your feet, like
they're coming to life inside of

you, Mother Earth, like there's
so much abundance in there, and

you're going to walk all the way
over to that fountain, and the

water is flowing. It's
magnificent. And over in the on

one side of the fountain, you
didn't even, didn't even realize

she was there, but there's a
little girl, and she's about

four years old, and she looks
just like you, and she's playing

in the fountain, and she's
little. She's you when you were

about four years old. See her in
the fountain. How precious she

is,

how cute she is. Can you see
her? But she's also lonely.

She's been wanting to play.

Let yourself go over to this
little version of you that has

been expected to be so studious
and serious and smart,

and she's covered in water,

and she's flicking it and
throwing it everywhere, and go

over to her and scoop her up
into your arms, all soaking wet,

and get yourself all soaking wet
with her

and hug her

and ask her what she needs from
You, this little four year old

inside of you, you

what does she need from you?
Siobhan, what does that little

girl inside of you need from you

Siobhan: that I'm almost I'm
seeing it as that she is giving

me the gift of not being so hard
on myself, yeah, and she's just

there, and she's in her
playfulness and her she's

soaking wet her hairs, and she's
just like, happy, and she's just

saying, Mom, look at me, like,
come be here with me. Yes,

that's, that's what I'm feeling
so

Crystal Andrus Morissette: and,
I'm going to tell you something.

Did she just say, mom? Mom,
that's not you, by the way.

She's not calling out to you.
She's calling out to your

mother, energy, because on the
other side of the fountain

there's an older version of you,
and Siobhan, she has a job to

do. And. Has to take care of
that little girl, but you can't

be doing that job anymore. You
have so much creative

expression.

You have so much money to make.

You have so much living and
writing and building and

creating to do that that little
girl inside of you really needs

to, like, set you free, but you
have to let her know that she's

safe and you've got mother
energy. That's mom, by the way,

not Siobhan,

so we're going to let the mom
inside of you finally have a job

to do. And what are we going to
do with mom and little you? What

are they going to do together?
Siobhan,

Siobhan: I can't I can't do it.

Crystal Andrus Morissette: Breathe
into it. Breathe into it.

Breathe into it. What's in going
on in your throat, what's

happening in your throat right
now?

Breathe into it.

It's okay to cry. It's okay to
cry. You know, it's so healing.

Yeah, it's so good. It's okay.
It's so like, it's good, it's

good. Cracking open the blue
that's right around your head,

right around you, behind you is

the water flowing? Is your
throat flowing? Stay in your

body.

I accept that my throat feels
really tight, right now.

Can you say that I accept that
my throat feels really tight.

Unknown: Tell me more about
what's going on in your throat,

just all the physical things,
nothing, nothing emotional, just

the physical things you're
feeling.

Siobhan: It's like clenching and
then it's almost like there's

spasms coming up my tongue. I
accept that

my throat is clenching. Let's do
this right now.

Crystal Andrus Morissette: Stay
with it. I accept that my throat

is clenching.

Siobhan: Oh, I accept that my
throat is clenching. And I'm

going to give

more energy to just accepting
the clenching. It's getting

clenching, and I can feel stuff
coming out from my belly.

There's an energy rising up.
It's really wanting to keep

moving through me.

Crystal Andrus Morissette: I
accept that my throat is tell

it's, keep saying it. I accept
what

Unknown: accept that I need to
release.

Siobhan: No, the energy we're
going to do this.

Crystal Andrus Morissette: Siobhan,
I accept the energy. I accept

the block. I accept this block
right now in my throat. Breathe

into that. I accept the block
that's in my throat. Tell me

more about it. I accept that it
feels constricting, constricting

tight. I accept and I surrender
to this constricting. The

surrender in this constricting
is trying to show me something

where I have a block. I accept
that my throat really wants to

be free.

Siobhan: Can you say that I
accept that my throat wants to

Crystal Andrus Morissette: be
free? I accept that it's showing

me where there's a block.

Unknown: I accept that it's
showing me where there's a

Crystal Andrus Morissette: I
accept and surrender to this

block.

I accept and surrender to this
block what's coming up for you.

There's relief. Yeah, can feel
it.

And in that relief, I accept
that it's there, and I accept

that it's changing, and I accept
that I'm becoming more creative,

and I accept that I have, like,
such high levels of

consciousness that I get really
frustrated because I don't ever

want to be anywhere than up
swirling around in the clouds

with all the geniuses

Unknown: truth

Crystal Andrus Morissette: and
So your block is through heart

chakra in the throat, that's
just all it is right now, is

like your heart is ...you have
so much and you have so much

energy up here, that's you have
so much Energy up here that just

having more compassion with
yourself would open this up

Unknown: to just let more of
that come out breathe into that

more,

Siobhan: I am enough. I am I am
enough.

Crystal Andrus Morissette: You
are more than enough. So many

women are going to learn from
you just this. And it's so like

someone might say, Well, what
did you actually do? But what do

you feel

Siobhan: relief in that I am
where I need to be, and I'm I'm

doing it. I'm doing the thing.
Yeah, that makes me happy. And

it will all settle where it
needs to be.

Crystal Andrus Morissette: It
will settle exactly where you

want it to be, and where it
needs to be is happiness. It

doesn't need to be anywhere
other than happiness, you know,

like there's no other need, like
there's no need anymore.

Siobhan, for you to prove
yourself,

Siobhan: it's a self inflicted
need, I guess, right.

Crystal Andrus Morissette: yeah,
just keep checking that, because

that's that's just pride, that's
just pride, and it's really hard

to to to accept and surrender to
our pride, like you have a lot

of pride, like I'm really smart
and I had a lot to do, and I

want to do more than just do
driver's training, and there was

a time where I don't want to put
this down, but I was a personal

trainer, and I was so freaking
smart, I could have been a

doctor, and I'm in a gym helping
women lose weight, and I should

be a doctor, but I'm doing
really important work with these

women in this gym, and that work
led to this work. So your

driver's ed is practice in
coaching every day that you're

in a car with someone you're
coaching that woman.

So thank you, and

just keep accepting that you
have stories we all do, and

wounds that we all do, and

Unknown: things we want to shine

Crystal Andrus Morissette: light
on. And the only way to change

something is to accept it.
Energetically. Siobhan,

energetically, let the scientist
in you recognize that you cannot

energetically change anything
until you accept it, because

reason resonates right above
acceptance and love. You can't

love yourself until you accept
yourself.

And you're so damn reasonable

Unknown: that you're so close to
just love, and that's a hard one

for people to understand. When
you're so intelligent, people

don't realize you're so loving
too.

Crystal Andrus Morissette: You
we had a lot of love to share,

so I

Unknown: hope that that helped
today, and I would love if you

would come back in a week from
now

Crystal Andrus Morissette: and
do a check in. And no one's

promising

Unknown: miracles overnight, but
relief leads us to more clarity.

Always confusion, no good comes
from that.

Crystal Andrus Morissette: So
thank you. Any last thoughts,

Siobhan?

Siobhan: Just... I guess a
mantra for myself is that I am

enough, just as I am, yeah, and
we and I can write it on a

sticky note and put it on the
wall and put it in the bathroom

and put it on the mirror, yeah,
so that when I Yeah, start

feeling overwhelmed. It's there.

Crystal Andrus Morissette: Yeah,
because we all at the core,

wound of all of us is I am not
enough, and then I have to prove

myself, and then I get caught in
the identity and the pride, and

I deserve more than this, and I
should be making more money than

this. Is bullshit, but what if
this was all part of leading

into the letting go of that job
to move into that job, but it's

the only way we move from one
thing to the other. Is one

degree at a time. You just want
to titrate really fast.

You just want to, like, blow the
balloon up.

And you know, when we get out of
our own way, it can happen

really fast.

Siobhan: So thank you. Thank
you. Thank you, Crystal.

Crystal Andrus Morissette: Wow,
let's all take a deep breath.

Yeah, that was really good.
Like, whether you were in the

love seat today, which that was
only fun, or you were listening,

didn't something shift if you
let yourself, if you let

yourself just close your eyes
and just drop down into your own

heart. Where are you stepping
into? What are you releasing?

What power are you finally
claiming for yourself in your

own acceptance? You don't have
to do this alone. If today's

conversation landed for you,
share it with another woman who

needs to hear it. Make sure
you're subscribed, because next

week, we're going even deeper,
and if you're ready to take this

work to the next level, really,
I would love if we love for you

to check out the S.W.A.T.
Institute. www.SWATinstitue.com

we are the new special weapons
and tactical and we're going to

heal this world one woman at a
time www.SWATinstitute.com. We

have a Master Empowerment Coach
Certification beginning that is

a Body-Mind-Spirit,
Foundation-Activation- Legacy.

It is the real deal. And I would
love to spend the next 50 weeks

with you, because we do every
single week, and we stay at this

thing year after year. And I
would love to be able to support

you, because here's the truth,
this is your time. This is your

season. This is your moment to
rise until next time be simply

woman. That's it for today's
episode of the Simply...Woman

Podcast. If something shifted
for you today, don't stop here.

Take the next step. If you want
to be coached live on the show,

join us inside the
Simply...Woman Podcast Studio.

Sign up now at
www.SWATinstitute.com.

And make sure to subscribe so
you never miss an episode. And

if you're ready to go even
deeper, check out the Master

Empowerment Coach Certification,
because the world needs more

women leading the way. Now I
leave you with just one

question, what would courage
have you do?