Simply...Woman!

Crystal Andrus Morissette: We've
all heard it before, "Just love

yourself. Move through life with
grace and an open heart. Let

love guide you." And it sounds
great! I get it. It does sound

great. I love moving through
life like that. But when you're

sitting in fear or doubt or
frustration, those words can

feel impossible to hear. They
really can like, Are you really

telling me just to love myself
right now? Because love isn't

something you force, it's
something you build the

emotional capacity within
yourself to hold. It's almost

like, that's like, "Holy, this
feels so good. I don't know how

to hold this." Well, you don't
know yet how to hold that kind

of energy, that kind of flowing
energy that's coming into your

body. So we're going to build
capacity to be able to resonate

to be in love

Unknown: more easily, and
listen,

Crystal Andrus Morissette: you're
still human. Life is going to

happen. And here's the thing, it
takes daily vigilance to get

yourself into the place where
that becomes automatic. And

that's what we're doing today.
We are going to do the real work

of emotional empowerment. We're
going to coach women through the

exact steps to move beyond
insecurity, beyond past self

doubt, beyond just into a space
where love and personal power

can actually flow like we got to
get rid of some of the blocks

and the things that are just
stopping the flow of all this

good energy, this source energy,
this feel good energy to move

through you. And trust me, this
is not about people pleasing. Oh

no, no, no. It is not about
perfectionism. This is real

life. This is about real,
grounded, unshakable self love.

Okay, it's hard to get
there, but this is the kind that

comes from courage. Like this is
what you need to know. This is

why. This is not the "froo-froo, woo-woo,
just love yourself." But I

don't know how this comes from
self respect. This comes from

courage, and it comes from
knowing how to because

empowerment is learned how to
break free from the Pride-Shame

Loop. I teach this. I actually
looked it up to be like, Is

anyone else teaching about the
Pride-Shame Loop? Did I create

this? So far, it seemed like I
did, because it's a loop and it

keeps us stuck. So if this
speaks to you today, stay with

me, because we're about to go
deep. This is Simply....Woman!, and

it starts now.

All right, welcome back. If
you've been here before, you

know that Simply...Woman -- the
podcast isn't just about a one

time conversation. Real
transformation happens in the

days and the weeks and even the
months, sometimes years after

even just one session. It's
amazing the way empowerment

works, but that's why we're
doing something a little bit

different today than we did on
our first two episodes, because

we just got started, and now
we're like, oh, so before we

dive into today's session, we're
checking back with last week's

guest, Janet to see how she's
feeling. I've really learned a

lot about when someone shares
and feels courageous and pride

like I feel really proud of
myself. It's almost inevitable

that's this vulnerability kicks
in, and what lands next is,

like, I've coined it "Sharer's
Remorse". Here's the thing. I've

asked Janet if she wants to come
back, because empowerment is

always a choice, just like Janet
made the choice, the decision to

be coached on the podcast last
week, she also has the choice to

return. And I love choice, and
that's power, because I see it

all the time. What I call like,
I said, "Sharer's Remorse". You

open up, you have this
breakthrough, and then suddenly,

and I know this because I've
done it. I was saying like, I've

been on so many interviews, I've
done so many podcasts, I've

taught so many classes. I'm
unfiltered, and for a while

there, I scared myself because
the stuff that I just say, and I

realized why I was saying. It
was often because I thought, but

if I think this way, or I've
been through this, or this has

happened to me, and I've had a
breakthrough, and I've I'm not

dealing with that anymore, like,
why don't I just tell the

context of what I was going
through and how it shifted for

me? And this is how, if we can't
share, or we feel like we we

have to be perfect, or we have,
we have to protect all the

secrets or the Pride-Shame Loop
takes over. One moment, you're

proud of yourself, you're
speaking up. The next, you

wonder, did I say too much? My
life story! Am I too much? Did I

do too much? Is my hair too
much? Am I too much? Should I

have held back? Should I hold
back? But real empowerment is

breaking free from all that!
It's it's breaking free from

that loop. It's about standing
in your truth, owning your

story, so it doesn't own you
anymore. It's not about

oversharing. It's not about
hurting other people. It's not

about... it's ...it's about
checking in with your truth. And

"when you change the way you
look at things,

Unknown: you change, and they
change!"

Crystal Andrus Morissette: Just
from all this stuff that's going

on with your imagination and the
brain and your heart, and it all

starts to connect. So let's do a
check in and see where Janet is

at today. Hey, Janet, how are
you doing?

Janet: I'm great. I'm great.
Lots of Sharer's Remorse, as you

call it, last week, I shouldn't
say lots, but like, for the

first little while, I was like,
Oh my God, what if somebody I

know sees this? What if my
daughter sees it, you know? What

if? What if Steve hears me
downstairs and but I get over

pretty quick. One thing I'm
having, personal training,

personal empowerment coaching,
calls with Crystal, yes, and

along with that, like it's quite
helpful for me. What you're

teaching me about accepting,
accepting all the nasty things

that that are going on in my
life. Those statements really,

they really help me feel like my
heart is opening and my body is

not heavy.

Crystal Andrus Morissette: Wow.
It's beautiful. Let's (its

heavy) recap, I'm going to recap
what you just said. So Janet and

I also do coaching. Janet has
signed up to become an

empowerment coach. I shared that
the last time, and I think I saw

her face that you guys didn't
see it there. You just saw her

little grin. She kind of was
like, and I saw that little

grit. And I was like, I think
I'm, maybe I'm not supposed to

be sharing that. But Janet is on
a mission right now, for really

wanting to, I'm going to, I'm
going to say it this way,

Janet's on a mission of healing.
She's on a, on a really deep,

personal journey of of healing
and healing. And what does that

mean for healing? She's letting
herself I'm going to let her say

it, but she just said letting
myself accept because this is

what we she's also booked
coaching with me. So we did our

fourth coaching call this
morning, as a matter of fact,

and I realized in that coaching
call that I really wanted to

invite you back on. Because as
we talked, I realized that this

is what the Pride-Shame Loop is.
It's right there. It's like you

feel proud of yourself, and then
you start going, what, what? And

I feel guilty. It's all the
emotions in there that are

really hard to accept. Oh my
God, I feel guilty that I talked

about my husband and my
daughter. Do I have the right to

do that? Like I don't have the
right to tell things about that.

I'm like, I feel like, what if
they're here? I feel ashamed. I

feel I feel embarrassed. I like,
there's just a billion emotions

that you might not have felt,
but it would be very normal if

you did. I felt fear, I felt and
the the process I gave to Janet

was, what if you could just give
yourself permission to not be in

such resistance, because you're
very strong. Janet said, I feel

very strong mentally. I feel
very strong physically, but I

don't feel strong emotionally.
And I said something to Janet,

and she said, I need to write
this down. And I said, Janet,

you're very strong emotionally.
It's that you're not comfortable

with your emotions. So you want
to be strong, and you have these

mental thoughts of strength and
then, but that locks you in the

Pride-Shame Loop. And the reason
it locks you in there is because

this pride, which is right at
the top of the loop, by the way,

like, if we could just push
through pride, like, if we could

just let ourselves be like,
because we do have to have self

pride. We do have to have
dignity in order to get anything

important done in the world. We
do have to believe in ourselves.

We do have to feel like, I can
tell my story. I'm going to do

this for me. I got to get some
coaching. I want to get some

coaching; Crystal is a
world-class coach. This would be

an incredible opportunity. So
you want to do this for

yourself, and then one of two
things happens, we either push

through and we have the courage
to honor ourselves and speak our

story like you did. You. And
then just let it land one level

higher, which is actually an
emotion just called neutral,

which is like, and I'm using
this off of, I have, I have the

"Empowerment Coach Success
Model", and I'd love to give it

to everyone who's listening
today, a copy of that book, the

digital copy, and it's on, I
think, page 34 and it's called

the "Language of Emotions," and
we understand what pride feels

like in the body, and it feels
pretty good when you've been in

fear, it feels pretty good,
doesn't it, Janet, when you've

been angry, to suddenly be like,
I don't want to be angry

anymore. I'm just gonna have
some dignity and self respect

and do what I gotta do. So if we
could push into courage, what

you did last week, how did it
feel?

Unknown: Great. It did. It. Yes,
it did. And I put my hand up to

be a part of the podcast, I
instantly went, Oh my God, what

did I just do? Yeah, that's all
naturally. After

Crystal Andrus Morissette: that.
Yeah, it was beautiful. It was

all normal. It was natural. And
it was just two women

Unknown: sharing

Crystal Andrus Morissette: a
conversation that really was

resonating in love. It was very
high, resonating everyone. Could

feel it. You shared a little bit
about that you've been diagnosed

with stage four cancer, that
you're having some struggles

with your children, don't we all
that you're having some

struggles with your husband, who
you love and adore, but maybe

you're co dependent. That can
happen like you just shared some

just real life things. But on
top of it, I have this health

scare right now, and I really
needed to take care of me, and

that became like we need to care
about Janet right now, and

truthfully, your kids care about
your healing, and your husband

cares about your healing, and
everybody just wants to be like

part of this pouring love on
you. So I did say to you, would

you come back because Janet, it
is letting yourself receive love

too, to be seen,

to use your throat chakra to
speak your truth and

to stand in it and just let
yourself. You don't have to be

amazing, but you don't have to
fall down to a low place either,

like sometimes we just gotta let
it land and then unplug. Don't

watch it again. Just unplug, let
it land and be like, I did that

for me. And I'm just I'm not
attached to because the chances

that your kids are ever going to
find this your husband are next

to zero unless they're like, I
want to know all the things my

mom does, but the reality is,
most kids want to know nothing

that their mom's doing,
especially when they're in their

late 20s. So back to you, Janet,
just let's do a little recap and

tell us how you're feeling.
Because one of the processes was

just like, I accept that I am
really angry that I have cancer

because you didn't want to be
angry and you didn't want to be

afraid. I accept that I have
this fear inside my body. That's

not I accept that I'm angry
about cancer. You're not

accepting yet cancer, and maybe
you never will. Maybe there will

come a point where you'll say, I
accept that I have this cancer

in my body. I don't know Janet,
it does. I don't know that for

you. And I wouldn't even suggest
that to somebody unless there

was something in them that said,
I think it might give me

tremendous relief. So let's turn
it back to you. I

Janet: just the Accept model.
I've done it with so many things

over the past day or so, even,
as I mentioned to Crystal this

morning, even our dogs, when
they go out in the backyard,

they just bark. And I'm just
like, they annoy me, so I love

them dearly, but they annoy me.
And I just say to myself, I

accept that our two dogs annoy
the heck out of me when they get

out there and they bark, and our
neighbors are going, what these

dogs out there again? So there's
so many models, and as way, as a

way I use that I accept model,
and also, going back to sharing

a story last week, there's a
part of me that has not spoken

out in so long, but I have
listened, listened to many women

since I started pet in
September, and each time crystal

invites somebody to coach at the
end of the call, at the end of

the class, I'm sorry, and I
listen to all these Women, and

everybody inspires me. So I'm
like, I'm taking and taking from

everybody. Okay, now it's my
turn to give, like, to share, to

to say something, because my
voice matters as well. Yes, so

it was quite, it's been, it was,
that was quite an, I don't know

if it's an awakening, I would
call it, but it's quite

enlightening, or, I'm not even
sure the right word for it,

Crystal, but yeah, and these
past two days, again, more

coaching today and yesterday
with crystal. Again, more like

just way more. Awareness. It's

Crystal Andrus Morissette: beautiful.
It's absolutely beautiful,

amazing, right? Like everyone,
everyone just listening, and

those of you that had a chance
to catch last week's episode,

like Janet, made the choice to
come back, to keep the

conversation going, and that's
where real transformation

happens. If and if you felt
something in Janet's story.

That's because transformation
isn't just for Janet, and that's

what we're all realizing. It's
for all of us, like it's for me.

I got a lot out of it. I've been
walking around saying, I accept

that. I feel fear that, and then
it's like, oh, I don't actually

feel that fear. What was going
on here. I accept that. I feel

frustrated that my husband is
and it's not me throwing my

husband under the bus. We're
just real people. We have real

life. It's always going to be
the people closest to you that

trigger you and drive you crazy.
So like, you're not throwing

anyone you love under the bus,
you're just going like, I love

them. They drive me crazy. They
know the hell out of me. I love

my dogs, knows the hell out of
me. I accept that I love my

dogs, and I accept that when
they bark, they annoy the hell

out of me. And guess what, I
still love them. Because you

actually can't reach love
without acceptance, but you

can't force that on someone like
you can't say to someone, accept

the barking, accept the cancer.
You might go, I can't, I can't,

but I can accept that I'm angry
about it, and I can accept that

I'm exhausted by this bullshit,
and then that level of

acceptance actually overrides
the anger, and it overrides the

bullshit, and it overrides at
least temporarily, and it

doesn't mean it's fixed all The
problems, but in that moment,

you're resonating higher, and
you're not bogged down in the

weeds and up in that higher
place. You have the mental real

estate now to, like, what, what?
What are your next steps? Janet,

just for now, like, what? What
does it feel like? Courage would

have you do now that you're in
this level of like, I'm

accepting my emotions for

Janet: now, I have to continue
with the acceptance. Like I'm

not ready for another level, at
least that's where I'm at,

because in order for me to, I
think, go to the next level.

There's so many things that I
still need to accept, accept,

accept and be okay with with it.
So I think for now, for me, my

focus is going to be on the
acceptance.

Crystal Andrus Morissette: So I
love that, and here's why,

because if, if if you had said
something different. I because

empowerment coaching. We also
never give people advice, by the

way, ladies, we don't give
advice. We are not there to give

advice. We're there for us to
help Janet access the level of

consciousness that she's
comfortable at that it feels

like it, it feels I feel good
with this one. And when you're

trying to push someone to get
happy too fast, you can actually

hurt them, like, it's like,
positive psychology works when

someone's in a place to receive
the positive. Like, when I was

saying to Janet last week, you
might have been like, why are

you making her recite something
that doesn't but we could, I've

done this long enough that I
could feel what I was doing. I

could feel that she was at the
cusp of the pride shame loop,

and if I could push her into
courage, we could have a

breakthrough. If I was working
with someone and I truly knew,

like, wow, this woman is like,
truly resonating. She...She

can't turn her camera on, she
couldn't turn her camera on.

That takes too much courage.
She's not there, like she's and

I get her on the call, I would
not be having her say those

things. Just know it's very
individualized. So it's you're

meeting your client where she's
at. You're always meeting people

where they're at, not where
you're at. You can be resonating

up in love. I love everything.
I'm unconditional. The way that

I love Jana right now is the way
that I love my children like I

just let the the emotion of love
is healing. So when we have

conversations that are loving,
so you can be up there, but if

you as a coach, get on and you
realize, Wow, this woman right

now has had some things happen.

Unknown: It's drained her. She's
drained and

Crystal Andrus Morissette: she
doesn't feel really empowered

right now, because she she
doesn't, because she's given her

power away to way too many
people. I cannot say to that

woman, let's just have a happy
thought. Let come that's got to

make some healthy food like that
is not you meet them where

they're at and you meet them in
the place that's like, Yeah, can

we get somewhere fast?
Sometimes, sometimes we just

have to build emotional capacity
to take on a little more energy

and to sit with that. So what
Janet is saying is, I'm really

sitting in the energy of
neutrality. That's actually not

actually in the energy of
acceptance. She's neutralizing

Unknown: the triggers and.

Crystal Andrus Morissette: Of
all the shit that's been driving

her crazy. That's what that
process does, ladies, it just

neutralizes So Janet, thank you
so much. Any last thoughts

before we introduce our next
guest?

Janet: Just thank you. Thank you
for everyone. Actually, it's,

it's, it's quite nice to be a
part of this community, and

that's why I wanted to do Mac
but I don't think I'm gonna do

that right now.

Crystal Andrus Morissette: I
said to Janet, Janet, you don't

need to spend any more money
right now. Let's just get you

accepting the money you've
already spent.

Janet: Thank you, Crystal and
everyone.

Crystal Andrus Morissette: Alright,

Listen, if you felt something in
Janet's story, honestly, I

really would love for you to go
back and Janet gave us this

beautiful opportunity to learn
and to listen and to release our

own limiting beliefs and
stories. So I just want to thank

Janet so much. And as you listen
like I said, you might be saying

to yourself, well, what's my
next step. So if you did miss

the episode, go back and watch
it. Subscribe to my channel, and

you can actually check in at my
school, the SWAT Institute.

Janet was talking about Mac and
packing and be like, what are

all those acronyms for? Check it
out.

www.SWATinstitute.com/podcast.
Now let's meet Angela. Angela is

here. She's ready. She has no
idea what's about to unfold, but

I do, and I know this incredible
woman, and whether she thinks

she's in the right place right
now or not, let's dive in. Hey,

Angela, how are you

Angela: good? I said, Yes. I
said yes. So I'm doing better

than I thought I was going to
be. Angela,

Crystal Andrus Morissette: you
said, Hell yes. You were like,

hell yes, I'm going to do it.
Angela, thank you for being on

Angela, let's do a little
Cliff's Notes version. Cole's

Notes version of where you're
at. Just now, I know I'm putting

you on the spot, but not really.
You're choosing this. So this

is, like, this is powerful work.
So what give us the Cole Notes

or Cliffs Notes, version of
what's going on for you.

Angela: Well, predominantly, I'm
going into my Seventh, Seventh

decade, so I'm going to be 70 in
September, and I think that has

caused a lot of

shifts for me,

for my life. And what's going on
is I have a lot of physical

challenges right now that are
slowly getting better, and I did

not plan on those, but they're
very challenging. And then I'm

caring for my disabled son, and
I want to, you know, help him

transition for his next steps as
well.

Crystal Andrus Morissette: Okay,
yeah, you're amazing. Can we all

just first say that Angela set
70. Angela, how do you look like

you're 40? That's all I want to
know about that. Angela is also

a master empowerment coach, and
she does take care of her son.

Sunny, Yes, honey. So before we
get into strategy, ladies, when

you do empowerment coaching,
it's always emotions. First

strategy Second. Okay, so we do
coaching from the body, not from

the head. So the first thing we
want to do, Angela, is we just

want to put two feet on the
floor. It really does. It's a

grounding it's a grounding
exercise, and it's important to

do that. It's like, it's almost
even a metaphor for life, like,

really, ultimately, if it's
going to be, it's up to me, and

I gotta put two feet on the
ground, and I gotta get myself

to where I want to go, because
nobody's coming to save me. So

two feet on the ground is a
metaphor for, if it's meant to

be it's up to me, and I'm going
to stand like a mighty oak tree,

and I gotta grow me some roots
long and deep, no matter what's

going on in my life. So Angela,
two feet on the floor. Can we do

this together? Let's take a big
breath in just if you want to

lift your arms, you can if you
don't. I always say to the

ladies, just lift your arms like
Whoo. And as your arms are

lifted, and you have that big
breath, relax your pelvic floor.

See if you can just relax your
pelvic floor and exhale. And

now, just now you have awareness
of your pelvic floor, you might

go, what does this have to do
with anything? Well, isn't it

interesting that it's all
connected Sacral Chakra, root

chakra connects right to our
throat chakra, cervix and

cervical spine. So we're
connecting the energy in our

bodies. So we're now going to
just be aware of pelvic floor.

We're going to engage pelvic
floor as we engage our voice,

we sit tall,

we feel powerful. Angela, if it
didn't make you a bad mom. It

didn't make you a bad daughter.
It didn't make you a bad woman.

It didn't make it did not mean
one dang thing about you as a

human being. If you could just
tell yourself the truth right

now and drop down, down, down
out of your busy brain and all

the thoughts and the worries and
the turning side. 70 and the

physical challenges, and what
are we going to do with Sunny

and just keep dropping. Feel
yourself drop all the way down

into your throat. I'm just going
to mute your line for a second.

We're just going to drop all the
way down through your throat,

right down into your body. Let
yourself just feel the

sensations in your body right
now, just feel what's going on

inside your body, and whatever
you feel. Is it turning? Is it

still? Is it empty? Is it dark?
Is it bright? Is it light?

Angela: It's light. There's dark
behind it,

and there's words, and it says,
I want to live.

Crystal Andrus Morissette: Yes,
I want to live. And how does

that feel? Breathe into that. It
feels true. If breathe into the

place, let's don't go up in your
head. Stay down in your body.

Stay down in your body. Your
body is your messenger. It's

talking to you. It's like your
soul right there talking to you

through your body and your your
soul, your spirit, your energy,

is saying you have so much
living to do, and a willing

spirit. Boy, magic can happen
without willing spirit, can't

it? Yeah, I want to live. And
there's this bright light, but

underneath the bright light,
let's let's know the bright

light is always there, because
it's who you are, and it's like,

it's reminding you, like the
source energy that flows through

the most divine, spiritual gurus
you've ever watched flows

through you, the healing energy
that flows through every person

that's ever had a miraculous
healing flows through you. The

Holy Spirit that has touched
people's lives all over the

world flows through you, which
is so anointing, but we also

have our humanness and our fears
and our our shadows. So let's

ask the light if it would just
lovingly, just move to the side.

Let's see in our bodies, and
just say, today, I accept that

there is darkness behind the
light. So are you comfortable

just first, just letting
yourself accept that there is

light and there is a dark shadow
in there. Can you? Can you let

yourself be comfortable with
like, I accept that there's a

dark shadow in there.

Angela: You do accept that
there's a dark shadow in there.

So

Crystal Andrus Morissette: let's
go back into your body and just

ask your body how long that dark
shadow has been in there. Don't

go up in your brain. Just stay
in your body. Let your body talk

to you just like, be down in
your body. Love your laugh of

truth. So don't, not think about
it, because your thoughts don't

know. But if you just ask your
body, like, let's not, let's

stay with a dark shadow. Let's
let's not overthink it. Tell me

more about this dark shadow.
Where is it sitting inside you?

Where do you feel it? Where do
you see it? Where do you

acknowledge it?

Angela: I think it might be kind
of in my heart, and maybe a

little bit lower the dark
shadow.

Crystal Andrus Morissette: So
let's close

our eyes and let's again. Let's
do this again. It's really

important we do this. Angela,
we're going to see a little mini

you standing on a little mini
elevator and a little platform

inside your brain. Your brain is
so freaking smart is firing off

like a billion neurons every
second, and it is so busy in

there. So you're going to walk
over to the elevator that's at

the wall there in your brain,
and you're going to press the

down button, and you're going to
go into the elevator when the

doors open and the doors are
going to close, and there you

are standing inside the
elevator, and it suddenly got

really quiet.

The elevator is soundproof.
We're going to press the

button down. It's so safe. This
elevator ride will never you'll

never have problems with this
elevator. You're going to press

the fourth floor. Angela, keep
your eyes closed. Let's drop

down out of our busy brain and
feel the elevator in your head

slowly dropping down, down down
through your throat chakra, I

saw your throat. Just have a
little swallow. Lick your lips

and swallow. Feel it continue to
drop all the way down in between

your chest, between your
breasts, right in your heart

center,

and let the elevator doors open,
and there's magnificent green

everywhere. There's the most
sacred beautiful garden you have

the most gorgeous garden inside
of you see all the beautiful

flowers, smell the beautiful
fragrance, beautiful. Your heart

is so big and so blooming and so
magnificent. And

in your heart center, you see
just a little door over in the

distance. And it's so bizarre
that there's this door. It's.

Standing there in your Sacred
Garden. I love your laugh, but

today you're just gonna walk
over to the door, because you

feel such love and acceptance,
and you're so anointed right now

and so much loving energy, that
today you feel safe to just stay

in your body. Go over to the
door, open the door, and there's

darkness.

Walk into the darkness.

How does it feel to open that
door and walk into that dark

shadow inside of your body?

Angela: Words came out. You know
that song? Hello, darkness my

old friend.

Crystal Andrus Morissette: Hello,
darkness, my old

friend. Yes. No, no, no, no. I
know crystal thinks she's a

singer. She's not, but she
really loves to belt it out.

Hello, darkness, my old friend.
And asked that, darkness, how

long have you been here? Our old
friend,

stay in your body.

Feel it. Your body will just
tell you the answer is, your

brain doesn't need to think
about this. It's instant. I've

been here, boom, since I was how
old

Angela: I was young. But I don't
know if I can give you the exact

date.

Crystal Andrus Morissette: Don't
worry. How, how, how's Young?

Angela: Uh, let me say

Crystal Andrus Morissette: in
your

Angela: maybe, okay,

Crystal Andrus Morissette: body,

Angela: all right. I would say

maybe 10. And I don't know why
that would be that way,

Crystal Andrus Morissette: beautiful.
You don't have to think about

this. Angela, this isn't a
thought process. This is a

feeling process. So let's go
back to it. Let's do it

together. I'm going to hold your
hand. I'm with you in there.

Okay, so we're together like
I've got a big miner's light. I

have been going into the
darkness for 30 years. I'm great

at it. I can go into the swamp
with women and be like, Come on,

girl, I'm going to show you the
way out. Let's go. Got nothing

to fear. So together, we're
going to go into the darkness.

You were 10 years old, and you
remember how you felt at that

time. You don't even have to
know what was going on. You

might know, but it's not even
about so much. The thing which

you could talk about you don't
need to talk about with me, but

the feeling that started to come
up for you around that age. What

was that feeling that created
that shadow, that disconnect,

that I don't belong,

Angela: I think, probably
questioning who I am, or whether

I was worthy of being who I am,
that kind of thing, thinking of

it externally instead of
internally beautiful.

Crystal Andrus Morissette: Let's
go back to your body, and let's

go back into the heaviness.
Let's imagine there in the dark,

there's a little girl that we
see together, and she's over

sitting in the corner. She's by
herself. She's about 10 years

old, and we walk over together,
and you realize there's little

10 year old Angela. She's 10
years old, and she has been in

this dark shadow room for a long
time, nearly 60 years, and she

doesn't want to be in here
anymore, Angela, she just wants

your love. She's sorry that she
didn't know what the hell was

going on when she was 10. And
she's really looking to you

right now, this wise, beautiful,
70 year old woman who has more

love in her than she's could
possibly. She could heal the

universe with the amount of love
that's inside there. So let this

wise version of you, the most
loving version of you, talk to

your 10 year old self. What?
What would she say to your 10

year old self?

Angela: She would say, It's
okay. You are so loved. You have

no idea how bright you really
are. And

Crystal Andrus Morissette: what
does your 10 year old girl want

you to know? Though, how hard
it's been, like, Where have you

been? Why did it take you 60
years?

Angela: Oh, if I could have done
it sooner, I would have you

know, really, if I could have
done this work a lot sooner, I

would have,

why don't you tell her that

if I could have done it earlier,
I would have done it earlier for

you.

Crystal Andrus Morissette: And
what does she want you to know,

though, because she needs to be
validated, like she's, she's,

she's felt it kind of ignored.
She has been ignored. Like, so

let's just what does she maybe
need to tell you? Like, do you

want to know what the hell has
been going on in here all this

time? Angela, why do the giggles
and thinks it's funny that you

would have done it sooner. Like,
she's not finding it funny.

Angela: No, I'm actually very
sad that she had to do that, and

I would say that I was so
distracted or didn't really want

to look at things or anything
like that. And so I don't really

have an excuse for it, other
than I'm here now. Yeah,

Crystal Andrus Morissette: and,
and, you know what's so

beautiful? About kids,

they're so forgiving, like
little kids,

your 10 year old just wants your
love like she's like, will you

love me?

Angela: Now, I always

did love you. It took me a while
to love myself. I always loved

you, even though you're part of
me, but it took me a long time

to love myself.

Crystal Andrus Morissette: So
let's imagine we're going to

give her a hug. We're going to
reach our hand down together.

We're going to do a group hug,
the three of us. That's like

group hug.

We're all hugging, and

she's not sure yet. Angela, I'm
going to be honest with you,

she's not quite ready for all
this love. This is quite foreign

to her. She's been neglected for
a long time. So let's take her

hand, and let's say, Guess
what's on the other side of the

door? Wait till you see this
place. Come on. Let's take her

together, and we're going to
walk through the door. And

actually, you know what we're
going to do, we're going to

flick the light on, because did
you know there was a light in

that room this whole time? You
didn't. Okay, can we find that

it's actually a dimmer switch?
Angela, can we? Can we just go

to the wall right now, there's a
dimmer switch. Okay, we're gonna

start turning the light out. And
she's like, What the hell? And

then you're like, let's look at,
look at, there's a window,

actually, who knew? And we're
gonna go out there. And now your

10 year old girl, 10 year old
little girl's gonna come out in

your secret garden.

Holy. How does that feel for her
to be inside your secret garden?

Angela: This what? She's

amazed, but this season exists.
Yeah.

Crystal Andrus Morissette: So
let's ask your body again. Let's

go back to your body in the dark
place that's inside your body.

Let's drop down out of our busy
brain and go back there, and

let's try to find that darkness
now and see what that darkness

needs. Is there more darkness?
Is there other places, Angela,

Is there anywhere else in there
that really needs your love and

attention now?

Angela: No, I think more me. I
need more of my own love and

attention now. So

Crystal Andrus Morissette: let's
find her. Who's me now? Where's

she? Angela, holy. You mean you
have more than one part? You got

a lot of parts, yeah. So imagine
if all those parts got together

for a family hug, for a family
dinner. Angela, let's invite

your 10 year old, your 20 year
old, your 30 year old, your 40

year old, your 50 year old, your
60 year old, and now you your

seven year old. Why don't we all
invite them for a beautiful

family dinner at a beautiful
restaurant, and you have a

private dining room, and
everyone's going to get to know

each other,

Angela: that'd be great.

Crystal Andrus Morissette: What
would

that feel like? Let's pretend
for a minute. Let's use our

imagination. If your imagination
is your greatest healing tool,

let's use your imagination and
imagine like what would like?

Let's imagine they're all
sitting at the table. Tell me a

little bit about this dinner.
What's going on? Like, if I told

you mine, I'm an actress, I can
literally be like, Oh my God, my

alcoholics at the table. She's
like, I bought another glass of

wine. I need a man. I just need
a man. And then I've got my

little Wounded Little girl, and
she's like, You guys are all

crazy. I don't even know what to
do with it. And then I've got my

like, mad scientist who's saving
the world, and she's writing

books, and she works day and
night, and she never stops

working, but she forgot to brush
her teeth, because she who has

time to brush her teeth, she
doesn't have time to eat, who

has time, I don't know, she's
just gonna eat a bag of

bon-bons, because she's she's
taking care of the world. So

let's find your people. Jen, I
mean, Angela, who's at your

table. Tell me about the women
at your table, tell me about

them.

Angela: Most of them from 40 on,
4050, 6070, would be caregiving,

because I had my children when I
was 40, so that would be a whole

different lifestyle from 1020,
3040, okay, then I was, yeah,

Crystal Andrus Morissette: I
love this. Okay, so we're now

almost seeing these two, like
we're seeing some parts. It's

like there's Angela before 40
and Angela after 40. Tell me

about Angela before 40.

Angela: Angela before 40 really
enjoyed doing things in her

life, but there was always a
part of her that I think felt

different than everybody else I
did. I don't know why. I don't

know how that would be that way,
but I always kind of felt I was

a little bit different, but it
didn't really bother me. But I

did feel different, but I loved,
I loved what I was doing. I was

a nurse. I had always wanted to
be a nurse since I was seven. So

I did do that. And I did like
20, over 20 years of being a

nurse. And I really enjoyed
that.

Crystal Andrus Morissette: Thank
you. Thank you for doing that.

What a what a career that is so
underpaid and and it's like the

superheroes of our society and
teachers like, I'm always like,

these are the people who are
like. Are literally taking care

of us when we're dying to get us
healthy, and literally raising

our children, and they're the
least paid, and 90% of them are

women. That's another whole
story about women and

empowerment. So Angela, thank
you for doing that and taking

care of it. So at 40, you have
your children, your twins, you

have your one son who is born
with Down syndrome. I don't know

if that's even what we say
anymore. I'm sorry if I'm not

appropriate. No, it's it is, it
is. It's great to say. So at 40

you were like, Okay, I now, were
you a single mom at that time?

Or were you married? I was
married, yep. So tell us a

little bit about now. I'm a mom.
I put on a different hat. I took

off that hat. Angela took off
her she put her down in the

basement with the 10 year old.
You guys, I don't know what did

you do with them? What did you
do with the part of you that was

like, having fun?

Angela: Well, I had always
wanted to be a mom, so I was

very excited. So it was a good
transition. Oh,

Crystal Andrus Morissette: so
this was like, actually, like,

an exciting time.

Angela: This was exciting. Oh, a
new time in my life. Yes,

turning 40.

Crystal Andrus Morissette: Was
that the like, breakthrough of

love?

Angela: Time in my life?

I didn't even bother me. I was
40. I because there was so much

going on.

Crystal Andrus Morissette: I
don't even

mean the 40. I mean, like, if it
was 24 and you had the children,

was that, like, the breakthrough
of love, like, was that when you

experienced, like, what, what
happened at that age you had

your children. It doesn't matter
the age I'm just

Angela: Yeah, okay. So what
ended up happening is I got

married about like the year
before, and I didn't think I was

even ever going to get married.
So there was a big life

transition into my going into my
40s, where I got married and

then I got pregnant right away,
and and then that piece about I

always felt different came
again. The Shadow came again.

Because I think I was, I don't
know, 20 something weeks, and

they told me that there was
something wrong with one of the

babies and maybe another one of
the baby. They weren't sure if

one or both were affected. And
so, actually, I, I'm going to be

in a chapter of a women's book
about accepting and loving what

is, and it's how I dealt with I
didn't want to have that happen,

and all the internal struggles I
had to do to accept something I

didn't want to accept and and
accepting and loving what is, is

the name of my chapter.

Crystal Andrus Morissette: Of
course it is. It's literally the

name of our of our podcast
today.

Angela: And so it just goes
through the journey of how

difficult it was for me to
accept something I didn't want

to accept, and that turmoil and
still loving them. So they're

that, they're a lot. I felt very
different because all my other

friends had either had their
babies and they were all, you

know, typical, normal, whatever.
I don't however you want to say

it. And so again, I felt very
different. So it came back

again, like,

Crystal Andrus Morissette: yeah,
so we're going to stay with

that, because that's the
feeling, that's the feeling

right now that I think needs
love. I think that's the part of

you right now that just needs to
know. It's a part of each of us.

And I will tell you that Angela,
it's probably the deep core

wound that

is, for most people, which is
whether it's I'm different, it's

I don't know if I belong. I
don't feel the same. I don't

I've I'm different and I'm maybe
not enough. Like there's just

this whole thing that's a deep
core wound, and I love your just

honesty of saying it comes up at
times.

And so if we could

again see that part of you that
feels so different as a version

of you, a version of you, I'll
tell you who I see when you talk

about that different part of
you. I see the artist that's in

you. I see the the compassionate
teacher. I see the woman that

writes the book that teaches
about acceptance and love. I see

that's the part of you that I
want to hope that you're going

to see in this conversation
today that I think you actually

know, because this is why you
are a master empowerment coach,

but you're also

Angela: saved my life by that
you did. I did that during a

dark night of the soul. My
friends laughed at me when I

told them I was going to be a
Master Empowerment Coach,

because I said you got to have
your life together, Angela, but

I knew in here that that was
going to happen. So yes, you

saved my life, and I'm so
grateful for you. That's how I

still follow you,

Crystal Andrus Morissette: Angela,
I love you and I, I, I receive

that. And then it's like, oh,
think how blessed I am. But I

have these women that say that
to me, I receive. Of that, and I

say, you helped me save my life
like you, we did it together,

because like having women who
like followed me, loved me,

listened to me when I didn't
belong in my own family, I was

ostracized. I was never
accepted, like from the time I

was little, is they might say
you were I wasn't. I was bullied

excessively, terribly, and I was
ostracized. So I never belonged.

My deep core wound is that I
don't belong. So guess what I

did? I built a community where I
would belong.

I literally, yes, community of

women that I belong to. So like
I belong to them. I don't have a

family, but I have this family,
and it's not cultish or weird,

it's just this beautiful
community. So I saved your life,

but really you saved your life,
and I saved my life, but you

helped me at times, and the fact
that you show up, that the fact

that you come on this podcast
today, and you had no intention,

probably of actually being the
person to

be coached, right?

Angela: Yeah, no, no, it really
wasn't. But you know

what?

Crystal Andrus Morissette: Thank
you for sharing your story,

thank you for sharing your
story,

and thank you for sharing your
humanity. That even though, and

it's interesting, because you
want to know what so many women

say, Who am I to become a coach?
I don't have my shit together,

like your friends literally said
to Angela, you gotta get your

life together. Yeah. But guess
what? Doing that work for

yourself is what helped you at
that time. What was your health?

Where was your health at when
you joined or when you started

following me?

Angela: My physical health was
good. My emotional health was

not not good. I needed, you
know, a lot of things in my life

were falling apart. My former
life was falling apart and going

away. And so it was this new
place that I was in a whole life

that I had been built for, like
I had was in the same house for

29 years. I moved, like four
miles away from where I grew up.

I was very rooted in my life,
and I, you know, my children and

all that. And then all of a
sudden, like everything got

taken away little bit at a time,
but very suddenly, and I was

standing in bare walls and
saying, Let's not stay here.

Crystal Andrus Morissette: When
did that happen? When was it

that you made this big change?
Was this you leaving your

husband?

Angela: No, he had, we had left
prior to that, um, when the kids

were three. So it was in 2013

Crystal Andrus Morissette: 2013
you were having your Dark Night

of the Soul.

Angela: Yeah, definitely having
a Dark Night of the

Crystal Andrus Morissette: Soul.
And you decided I need to do

Angela: Yeah,

this for me first.

you came in my email. And I
don't even know how that I don't

even know how that happened,
but, oh, I'm so glad it did, and

I didn't even think of being a
life coach. I, you know, it

wasn't even one of my things
that I was going to be doing so

but it resonated with me at that
particular time. And so it was a

very difficult time in my life,
and literally, between the

laptop and doing the studies, I
got better, I got healthier, and

I got empowered, you know, so it
was great. And I don't do it

perfectly, actually, all the
time and at all, but you did.

You came at a great time in my
life where I really needed it,

and I needed to to have that,
that root. You were a root for

me when everything else was
being unrooted. Thank

Crystal Andrus Morissette: you.
Thank you. I use that word a

lot. We Root to rise. We have to
Root to rise like we cannot

stand in our power if we still
are carrying a story that's

like, I don't belong. I'm not
enough. The people who had me

don't even want me, or whatever
the story is, and so we have to

form our roots, our own roots.
We have to create those roots.

I've said this before, and women
that do my my yoga classes will

laugh because I like talk more
than I teach, but I'm like,

ladies, do you know why trees in
a forest are so much more

powerful than a tree standing
are rooted and stable than a the

tree standing alone In a huge
field? And it's because the

roots of trees wrap around each
other, and so we strengthen each

other when we're together. And
so it is. So when we're doing

yoga, I'll say to the ladies and
we get ready for tree pose like

I let her go. Okay, do you think
these ladies will stand solid in

tree pose for themselves? No,
but all of a sudden you say, All

right, I need you to lock your
roots in. Grow roots long and

deep out of the bottom of this
foot. All right, you're growing

it. They'll start wrapping
around the roots of the women

beside you. Let's anchor each
other in Okay. Now let's go, and

as we rise, everyone's like a
mighty oak tree, because there

is something about energetically
knowing you're no longer alone.

You don't have to do this alone.
We cannot heal. Alone. If we

could heal alone, every woman in
the world would who wants to

tell people are embarrassing

stories,

nobody, but we can't heal alone.
We need to be witnessed,

and we need to be witness

through our pain in a way that
we're you know, one of the

reasons why? For many years, I
did empowerment coaching, and to

this day, I actually do it on
just a telephone without video.

And I know I've had women say,
why, in this day and age, it's

on Zoom. And I say because
bottom line is like, I don't

want you to have to worry about
anything exterior. I want you to

think about, well, does my hair
look good? Does my dad? Was she

well, what will she look like?
Will she be a lot? Will she and

I don't want to worry about how
I look. I don't want it to be

about anything physical. I want
it to be heart to heart,

emotion to emotion. I feel you.
I'm meeting you. Let's rise

together. And there's something
so powerful about that being

supported and nurtured in our
times where

we need someone to stand for us.

That's what we're doing. Angela,
we're standing for each other,

and then you're growing your own
roots. So let's circle back

around to I'm turning 70 in
September.

We all need to, like, throw a
party for Angela. September.

What Angela? What's the
September 12? So you're our a

Libra, Virgo. Virgo, that's
right. Virgo, you are salt of

the earth. How do you feel about
that turning 70? Angela, when

you just let yourself drop into
your body, not up in your

thoughts about what 70 means,
but like I'm feeling in my body

that I have an opportunity as
I'm turning 72

Angela: to live, I want to live,
to live my life. I've

Crystal Andrus Morissette: Yeah,
yeah. We want you to live. We

all want you to live. So wanting
resonates at an energy called

desire, and the energy that's
just above that that we could

just push up into a little bit
would be anger.

Angela: When we did that, I go
through that, I try not to stay

there.

Crystal Andrus Morissette: No,
you don't have but here's the

thing,

that's what women have not been
taught. You don't have to stay

there, but you have to. You have
to use your anger as fuel for

your greatness. Like women are
not taught what to do with

anger, so they just let it
implode on them, and then they

get sick. I don't want to feel
that it doesn't feel healthy. I

was taught my whole life anger
is not good. Anger is not

healthy. Anger is absolutely a
natural, normal emotion like

love, and when something has
been an injustice, you're going

to feel angry. When someone has
taken something that's yours,

it's natural to feel angry. It's
not if somebody hurt your child,

what should you do? Come on in
like that hurt my little girls.

No, you should be like, I'll
kill you. Like, honestly, that

doesn't sound very enlightened,
coming from the angel that I am

and I am, but I'll tell you one
thing, somebody breaks into my

house and they want to hurt my
kids like you're going to see a

mama bear that comes out that
live there. Would you want to

live there? But you know what? A
lot of women don't know?

Actually, that running in the
background all the time are all

the injustices that you've been
through your whole life that you

never acknowledged, all the
injustices of all the women

around you and everything
they've been through, all the

injustices that your mother went
through and your grandmother

went through and your great
grandmother went through. It's

all in your DNA. Angela
pretending it's not because we

just want to be spiritual.

That's what I hear. I want to be
love. It doesn't work.

So guess what works? I accept

that I'm angry that I got sick.

Angela: Yeah, I'm

angry. I accept that I am angry
that I got sick.

Crystal Andrus Morissette: Tell
me, do you feel comfortable

sharing what's the sickness or
what you're struggling with

right now?

Angela: Yeah, no, I feel
comfortable. It's, it's, I have

like, two rotator cuff tears,
and I've always had a bad back

for a long time, and then my
knees. So it's like my whole

body. I 24 was pain is my
friend. And What lesson are you

going to learn from this?
Because, literally, that was my

mantra, to get through it,
because it was unbelievable pain

that I did. I'm so kept
experience.

Crystal Andrus Morissette: I'm
so sorry, like I'm so sorry.

That needs to be validated. The
other thing we try to do to

people is we go, just. Okay,
we're going to focus on positive

thoughts and we're going to
accept the pain, but before we

can even get to that Angela, we
have to actually have somebody

say, Yeah, I'm so sorry that
you're in pain. I'm so sorry

you're in pain. That is an awful
way to live. The worst part

about it,

Angela: it is, it is an awful
way to live. The worst part

about it is, it's very difficult
for me to walk, so when I was

angry and I couldn't walk, and
I'm just really starting to

walk, and I'm not doing very
well with that at all. Is I got

a treadmill back there, which
you can see probably, and once I

started walking, I remembered,
this is how you get rid of your

anger. This, I needed to move my
body. And so there was a block

in my legs, yes, because I
couldn't walk. Yes, very well,

yeah. And when I get on that, it
I remember, if you know, like,

move energy. Movement, moves
energy. So I wasn't able to do

that.

Crystal Andrus Morissette: It's
part

of it. So we always remember
body, mind, spirit. So the body

has to move. If it doesn't move,
it's going to get stagnant. And

you could be the most spiritual
person in the entire universe,

but if you only sit in the lotus
position at the bottom of the

mountain, like your body has to
physically move to shift energy

and to shift blocks and to not
get stiff and sore and have bad

knees, the hips have to move.
Things have to move. Shoulders

have to move. The worst thing
that you could do right now is

be like, I'm in so much pain I
don't want to move. So even if

you're just doing this, you're
moving energy. Angela, so even

Angela: Yeah, no, they're
getting

better. Yeah, yes, I couldn't do
that before, but yeah.

Crystal Andrus Morissette: Like,
if we

could do this, let's do this.
Yeah, guess what that does.

Let's roll our shoulders back,

up and back. Let's just do that.

We're opening Heart Chakra.
We're actually moving energy in

our heart chakra. That's what
we're actually doing. Now, let's

roll it the other way. Roll
forward. Roll forward. Okay? And

if you just did that for 30
seconds three times a day,

that's not that hard. You just
moved body

Unknown: energetically. Now,
mind, so, no, let's go. Mind, so

mind, thoughts, I accept that
I'm going to have to keep moving

my body, even if it hurts,
except and I accept that I have

to walk on the treadmill because
I have to walk on my own two

feet. And it doesn't matter. It
doesn't even matter if I'm

walking. Angela, do you know
I've lost 60 pounds? I get it

was two years ago, but
everybody's always like, how did

you do it? Did you get did you
give up carbs? Did you i i did a

slow walk every day, and I
actually do, like, Tai Chi with

my arms. It's so easy that
everybody's like, What do you

mean? I'm like, I'm shifting
energy so I'm moving my body,

body, my mind. I'm I'm so
grateful that I get to move my

body. So grateful for this field
of energy. I can actually feel

it in my hands. I'm moving my
shoulders. I'm opening my heart

chakra. It all sounds so Woo,
woo, doesn't it? It's like, what

the hell? What is she talking
about right now? And then I'm

letting my and then I'm writing
in my journal between my Wounded

Self and my Real Self and my
Real Self, like "Crystal, I'm so

sorry I wasn't there for you all
those years. "And my Wounded

Self is so mad. She's like, you
weren't there for me, and where

were you? And you think you're
all so enlightened. And she

writes me these long letters.
And then my Real Self goes," I'm

so sorry. I love you. I'm so
sorry. Will you forgive me?" And

then my Wounded Self has to take
some time, and eventually my

Wounded Self says "it's really
hard to forgive you. You've kept

me down in the dungeon for 40
years. I'll try." It's all

metaphorical. It's all your
imagination, ladies,

Crystal Andrus Morissette: that's
how you can heal

body, Master move, yes, and you
have to try to put healthy like

high octane food. I don't even
call it good or bad. It's not

healthy. It's just like higher
octane, higher energy. If you

want to have higher energy, you
would have to eat foods that

have more natural energy, like
fruit. Everybody said, How did

you lose weight? I ate a shit
ton of fruit and vegetables. You

mean, you weren't highly focused
on like, this, this, this diet

and that diet. I'm like, why
don't we just get back to like

the basics, like, how did your
grandparents eat? Obesity and

all these illnesses is a
epidemic in the last 50 years.

It we are not moving. It's not
our fault. We have been

programmed to everything, to
become effortlessly, like my

husband will say, like, don't
worry about it. I'm gonna do the

dishes, please. I cannot sit on
my ass all day and work...

I will die.

So getting up and washing.
Dishes and learning how to

actually love the soapy water on
my hands, and be in the moment

and feel so grateful and wow.
And like, the whole shift around

everything starts to be like,
there's a whole you're gonna

have to do dishes anyways. You
could do it with anger. You

could do it resentment. You
could do it with gratitude that

you've got dishes now, trying to
get someone to get to that point

when they're down in the I'm in
chronic pain, is why telling

someone to love themselves
doesn't work, but telling

someone to accept the rage, the
anger, the fear, is the first

step to actually being like you.
Mean, I get to actually

acknowledge that I've rage and
anger and fear.

Um, well, yeah,

you do, and I would too. And we
can't change anything until we

accept it.

We can't love or

have a healing even It's so
crazy to actually try to explain

that to somebody, but healing
happens in the energy of love.

So what you defend against, you
create. So if you're like, I'm

angry, and I have to keep you
know, defending my righteousness

over here that I'm angry about
then you don't get to actually

utilize the energy and the power
of anger for you. Why would we

keep letting our anger implode
on us and stay angry at

everybody else and like, let it
hurt us. It's killing us. It was

killing me. I had to actually be
like, I am so angry that I'm the

sole breadwinner. I am so angry
that I've created a life where I

have made everybody co dependent
on me. I am so angry that I have

created a life where I need
everyone to love me. I am so

angry that I actually got to
acknowledge all the things that

I created,

and then I could actually be
like,

Yeah, and I accept that I felt
really guilty for putting my

foot down, and I accept that I
felt really guilty because I

actually I accept that I felt
really afraid, I accept that I

felt really trapped, I accept
that I felt and when all that

acceptance starts to show up,
it's like, okay, so now, what

would courage have you do? So,
Angela, my last question today,

and I would love to invite you
back in a week from now to give

us an update, if you just
allowed yourself to acknowledge

that I am angry about those
things. I wish I could turn back

time. I can't, but I have so
much pride and dignity for who I

am right now today, turning 70,
god damn it, I'm going to have a

third act that's going to blow
everyone away.

Angela: Yes,

Crystal Andrus Morissette: 70 to
100 and I'm going to be like

Louise Hay,

Angela: yes, she was wonderful.
What

Crystal Andrus Morissette: would
courage do? Angela, what would

courage have you do?

Angela: It's

the same. I want to live. It's
the same. It's from the

beginning to now.

Crystal Andrus Morissette: We're
nearly at the end. Wanting is in

desire. You already got that.
The seeds are planted. You

already got it.

You don't

Angela: I am going to live.

Crystal Andrus Morissette: Yes,
you don't need to stay in the

state in the planting of the
mustard seed right? The mustard

seed has been planted. Yes, if
you stay in the wanting, then

you're going to stay in desire,
and you're going to stay in

insecurity, and you're going to
stay in jealousy, not that you

are. You're going to look at
other people and you're going to

wonder, what are they healing?
Excuse my language. I just love

a good swear word now and again.
So wanting is not good to stay

in. Wanting is a good place to
start, but we can't stay there.

So I want to live I'm angry that
I got sick pride and dignity

tells me I'm going to have to
move my body and take

accountability and
responsibility for all my

feelings. And now courage is
going to have me walk on that

treadmill every day for five
minutes, even if it's so slow

that Crystal and I are doing Tai
Chi together on it, because

that's the only speed you need
to walk at Angela to grow roots

long and deep. You don't have to
do a cardio workout. Okay? You

do. I won't have to do cardio,
even though all the women doing

hit, I'm just like, What the
hell are y'all doing? Why are

all you guys killing yourselves
doing hit? You're not a man.

Your body wasn't designed. You
have to be a warrior. Walk into

your Tai Chi, get some five
pound weights. Move a little for

five minutes,

tell yourself some good things,

Unknown: and come back next
week. I will I love you. Thank

you. Thank you. Wow. Honestly.
What a powerful session. Angela,

you are so amazing. I want all
of us, ladies, everyone who's

watching, everyone who's here in
the live recording studio. Thank

you. Your energy has held so
much space for all of us. Let's

all take a deep breath. Because
whether you were in the love

seat today or simply listening,
I know that something in this

conversation landed exactly
where it needed for you. So

here's my question for you,
what's the one thing you're

going to take away today? What
spoke to you, what shifted

inside of you? Because
empowerment isn't just about

hearing the truth, it's about
choosing what to do with it,

really let that sink in.

Crystal Andrus Morissette: Take
a moment to feel it, feel what's

sinking in,

to own it and to decide what
comes next for you. And if

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